The nature of life is not permanence but flux. — Carson, Downton Abbey
I was living in a sea of boxes. It had been 2 weeks since I had packed up all my stuff and was ready to move. I was eager to close the sale of my NY apt to move to a city I had been in for a total of 4 days.
In case no one has ever told you, NYC is like crack, once you are there it’s not so easy to leave. It sucks you in. I am not knocking NYC. There are many things I love about NYC. Recently, I realized I missed it more than I knew. Except for growing up in South Jersey and attending college in PA, I had only ever lived in NYC. I had only ever worked in NYC. What kind of life was there for me outside of the mega-metropolis I had called home for my entire adult life? I had been wanting to leave for 10 years. For one reason or another it wasn’t happening. My apt wasn’t selling. I got cold feet. I got a job that kept me there. I hadn’t owned a car for 25 years… on and on. So why was I so eager and willing to leave? Why was it so easy to leave now? The answer is - I was ready.
The Progressed Moon in our birth charts is one of the primary indicators of how we are experiencing life and how we are evolving. Each cycle lasts about 27.5 years. At the time I was leaving New York my Progressed Moon was in the Waning Crescent Phase. Otherwise known as the Balsamic Moon, this is the last phase before the darkness of the New Moon.
Tony Robbins says “When things are going well, we tend to party. When things are not going so well, we tend to ponder”. The Progressed Moon in this phase is a time of pondering. When we have come to the end of something there can be an earnestness in the uncertainty. At the same time if were are paying attention, instinctively we know it’s time for something to end. David Letterman ended his show when he was in this phase. Astrology shines here in its ability to bring peace and stability in seemingly uncertain times. If you are in on the joke, if you know what is going on, you can be alleviated from some of the anxiety.
At the time I was asked by several different companies to sing a role I had sung nearly 25 years earlier. I turned them all down. I believe I was being asked — In what are you putting your faith in? How much are you identifying with external situations? Sometimes there is nothing to do but look up, get still and release what is asking to be released. What would have happened if I had stayed in NYC? The energy of the change would have still been present and would have taken a different form. The more I would have tried to hold on, the more frustrated and disheartened I would have become.
Many times, it’s not easy to let go of what we have known, especially when we don’t know what will be replacing it. The dance between change and uncertainty is almost always scary. This is true for even the most enlightened people I know. These are the times when we are being asked to develop faith. Faith that our security does not come from a person, a job, a profession. That faith and stability come only from our ability to connect to our Higher Selves and our ability to listen to and follow the promptings of our hearts above the noise of pop-culture and marketing schemes designed to pull attention. In these times we need the courage to be honest with ourselves, and the support and mercy in order to do so.
Regardless of what is going on in your life at the moment, we always need support. In the coming months, I will be leading a New Moon Circle to offer this support. Stay Tuned.